It is 10:35pm and I have been working since 7:30 am. Throughout the day significant, immediate demands on my time appeared. I had a full to do list for the day and it kept getting bigger. All day I brought myself back to the present moment to assess where I was and what was possible. At around 9pm, I made a decision to work late and get some grip on things. If I didn‚t, tomorrow would be the same. I felt my work load was like a snowball going down a hill at high speed, getting bigger and bigger. And I was running behind it to keep up.
Sometimes I have to make a decision to push through it in order to keep up. It’s an extreme, but helps me to maintain balance. Balance is dynamic, not static. I have to adjust and readjust. Tonight I pushed with the hope that tomorrow I will begin and end the day with work managed and getting done. Perhaps I will find new methods of efficiency as work speeds up. Or perhaps only balance can give me what I need. I’ll see.
Lynn Andrews once said that the world is speeding up to such an extent that we will have to find our still point. It will not be possible to keep up. Only from a center point of balance can we move forward.
I hope my fatigue staying up tonight is worth it and tomorrow I can enjoy balance and get my work done without stress and fatigue.